| Go Vote |
[02 Nov 2004|11:03am] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 tired |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
The TV |
] |
First and foremost, if you are registered to vote, and you can vote in the United States; GO DO IT!! ;)
Halloween was awesome this year- considering the past two Halloweens I slept all day long. I dressed up as a witch. I had a black dress with those butterfly type wings, and a pair of black tights with red fishnets over top and my black platform boots that Brandi gave me years ago...I was looking hella cute ;) I wish I would've taken some pictures but oh well- shit happens. I do have some pictures of my niece and nephew- Samie was an angel and Caleb was Spiderman- haha. That was adorable!! Jeannie, Zach and I went to Macados to hang out because we figured that it would be awesome and lots of people would be there, but the store was dead- I talked to Brian last nigh and he said he made about $27 in tips the whole night and he worked 10 hours, that's how dead they were. I'm glad that I wasn't working Halloween night. I didn't make good money at all Halloween lunch- I made about 20 bucks IF THAT, oh well- things happen...
Anyways...I think I am going to get off of here- weee- Faun is supposed to come by and hang out for a while- take care everyone..buhbye ;D
|
|
| A long while... |
[29 Oct 2004|07:46pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 ecstatic |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
Dad playing guitar... |
] |
Well, hasn't it been a fairly long time? With out an internet connection to my laptop I haven't really been able to update in a frequent manner...however, lot's of new things going on with my life:
1. School is going great- classes are alright, considering I only have two this semester...blaah. I'm slowly bringing up my Accounting grades and I think that I just might end up passing with a C or above afterall. I really need to start cracking down on my work and doing what I am supposed to do. I do my homework, but it's the tests that really get me...blaah- I've always been horrible with tests.
2. I recently got a new job at Macados in Salem. The tips are awesome..and I can't wait because Saturday and Sunday is Halloween weekend and we have to dress up (Saturday is optional) but I'm either going to be Pippi Longstockings, or a cow- since afterall I do love cows. ;) But I think I'm just going to be Pippi- hah, my sister in law also works there and she is going to be an Army girl. I told her when we introduce ourselves to tables she should say "Hi, I'm Sergent Guthrie- what can I get you to drink?!" That'd be halarious- and of course I would say "Hi, I'm Pippy- and I'll be your waitress for the day" Yay for Halloween! Yay for Macados! Yay for awesome tippers!!
I need to find a red bandana somewhere in my room- I know that I have one but I think I might have to go to WalMart anyways to get some long socks- I think I might pick up some Halloween socks-- woohoo! ;) I'm so excited; something so small gets me so excited, how pathetic is that? haha...
ANYWAYS...I really don't know what else to say besides it feels GREAT to be back! ;)
|
|
| [.Yup.] |
[05 Aug 2004|03:27pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 stressed |
] |
I'm sick of not having a computer. I'm sick of next door neighbors. I'm sick of lying. I'm sick of loving. I'm sick of rage problems. I'm sick of medicine. I'm sick of being sick. I'm sick of the rain. I'm sick of cleaning. I'm sick of music. I'm sick of dreaming. I'm sick of being bored. I'm sick of it all.
I'm so annoyed and I am so tired of running around like a chicken with my head cut off. I wish that people could just understand me and accept me for who I am. My own family can't even accept the fact that I am happy. I am 18 years old...do I REALLY have to be treated as if I'm an 8 year old child? What ever happened to Jamie being happy with the decisions she's made in her life? Should an 18 year old really be going through all of this stress. Yeah the rest of the family has their problems and they're dealing with it in their own way, but I deal with it my way and so what if my way doesn't suit the way of everyone else. I don't know what to do about my family. They're never going to respect me, they're never going to respect my boyfriend so why should I be FORCED to give respect to them? Whatever...I'm so tired of it all.
I need help...but I have no one to reach out to for the help I need.
|
|
| [.Tummy Ache.] |
[22 Jul 2004|10:42pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 sick |
] |
Starters- I have a new journal. It's a more personal- friends only journal. Comment if you want to be added and of course I'll think about it. haha ;o)
Secondly- I went to VA Western and was enrolled in my classes. Mental Health. I start at 9am and go until 2 on Mondays and Wednesdays and on Fridays I only go until 12pm. It's awesome...anyways.
I don't even like posting in this journal anymore. I feel like people are watching me and following up with my life when they're not supposed to. Ugh- idiots. Oh well...farewell everyone.
|
|
| [.College Bound.] |
[21 Jul 2004|12:05pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 cranky |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
Movie - Lord Of The Rings |
] |
I went to VA Western yesterday and talked to a counsler. She was actually really nice. She asked what I wanted to do and I explained to her that I was undecided. I had so many ideas- medical, computers, education, science related fields- and she gave me a guide book with all of the classes that Western offers and she told me to look through the general studies classes and to look through the information technology classes and get back with her on which classes I think I want to take based upon what my career choice is. I've been thinking it over but I'm still undecided. I don't really want to do much with education any longer..it's more/less between computers and the medical field. My counsler explained to me that the medical program they offer is restricted. I would have to (basically) prove myself to them that I am a good student. I'm excited about it all, even though it does give me a little nausea it's good for me. It's something I deserve to do. Better myself. I only have to take an Algebra placement test. I figured that I would have to take the English and Algebra but she looked over my transcript and told me that my English grades were good throughout the whole highschool term and she told me that the only reason I have to take the Algebra is because I took Geometry four times. (haha) She laughed about it, and I laughed about it so it was a pretty funny laughing matter.
I don't know what I want to do and I don't know where I want to start at. There's so many choices for me and I really think that what I need to do is sit down with a highlighter and mark which careers I think I would be best at. What careers would still be in high (if not higher) demand when I am 30 and 40 years old. Computers are growing so rapid as well as medicinal practicers. I need to figure it out some time soon. I just can't go in there not knowing. I've got until tomorrow- or friday to do something about it but I'm just a little stuck with what I want to do.
Anyways- I have to go. We're getting ready to take baby Matthew to the park to play on the swings. (Joy..) Hopefully I wont get sunburnt like I'm thinking is going to happen. ;o(
|
|
| [.Yawn.] |
[16 Jul 2004|09:24am] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 hungry |
] |
I'm pretty tired. I've been up since 5:30 this morning. I thought Zach was going to be late to work but he wasn't. I got him there with like 30 seconds to spare. Close to being late.
Something is wrong with my car. We changed the oil in it yesterday but it sounds like a rod is knocking or something. I don't really know what it could be, but whatever it is, it's happening and it doesn't sound too pretty. I'm taking Zach up to Duncan in Blacksburg tomorrow so he can look at some cars.
I have to go to Virginia Western this afternoon to take a placement test and sign up for classes. This should be fun. I'm a little nervous, but I'm dragging Heather along with me, so it shouldn't be all too bad.
Damnit! Heather keeps asking me what I'm writing about, and finally she asked if I was writing about how she kept asking me what I was writing about so yes Heavers! I wrote what you kept asking me about. Happy now? haha...
Anyways. I think I am going to go ahead and go. I just wanted to post a short update. I'm going to raid Heathers fridge and try to find me something yummy to munch on. Mmm... =) I want some tacos.
Later.
|
|
| [.Oh boohoo.] |
[12 Jul 2004|11:46am] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
annoyed |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
Heather & the Baby |
] |
Lets just cry ourselves a river so that we can all have a pity party. Wonderful. Haha, let me laugh at your stupidity while you call me crazy. Anyways...
I'm sitting here and I still have 30 minutes to go before I have to go pick up Zach. I've been at Zach's house since about 8 am or so and I came to Heathers around 10. Fun times.
I've got the hiccups and I'm really bored. I want to go shopping soon. Ugh...aggrivation is all around me.
Fun times.
|
|
| [.Wow.] |
[09 Jul 2004|08:35am] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
irate |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
TV - From Dusk till Dawn |
] |
Lynn got me addicted to this game- Literati. It's on Yahoo! and I am getting my ass kicked royally. I have like 50-some points and my opponent has like a hundred and some more than what I have. I just checked to see what the score was, 162 to 63. This is brilliant. Haha, woo-hoo! I kick ass. haha =)
Zach and I got into it this morning because he didn't want to go to work. So he threw it up in my face- "Well, it's my fucking job, I don't have to go in if I don't fucking want to. It's not your fucking money Jamie so lay off my back!" He just doesn't understand that the only thing that I am doing is trying to help him. He has to pay my dad 200 a month and if he wants to stay with me, he needs a job to pay dad and he needs to save money so that he can get himself a car and with him not doing anything but wanting to sit around and stay home from work he's not going to have any money to do anything with. I just don't understand. He makes it seem like it's not any of my business and I shouldn't understand, but we've been together for the past year now and I think that I've got the right to understand and I think that I've got the right to put my say-so in and I think that I am very understanding, but I know when he's really hurting or really sick and I know when he just wants to lay out. I've pulled all of those tricks before...ugh! It just makes me so aggrivated, but he's my baby so of course I won't say much about it.
Heather got up (barely) to take Zach to work this morning. I've been awake since 6:00 am, but she came home and she's zonked out on the couch. I didn't figure that she'd stay up very long, but I have the computer to keep me content, so I'm not bitching.
Mother of God, I was so pissed off last night. Someone (an anonymous source) sent Heather B. an e-mail that Heather H. sent to her boyfriend Will and all she was doing was talking tons of shit about me and Heather, and then two days later- this girl was smiling in my face and staying at my house. What the hell is the deal with that? Does this girl not have any brains what so ever? Heather B. and I was talking on the way back from taking Zach to work, and Heather told me that the other Heather wouldn't be here very much longer because she can't cope with stress very well. She can't take the shit that she started so she'll end up leaving and going right back to Wakefield. I don't care what she does. I mean, it's only obvious she stole my money. It's only obvious that she's the jealous one, she always has been. Heather B. and I have only had one fall out, and that was when Heather H. came down from Wakefield. She said that it was my fault that we fought, but that's not even the case. She needs to do some serious thinking. Heather B. told me that she wanted to start a fight with me a couple of times, well why didn't she do it? What was she? Skerd?! Man, I can't be ranting and raving like that. It's just that I am so sick of people smiling and laughing fake like in my face. Do I have stupid written across my forehead? Ugh. Oh well...
I'm just so sick and tired of being sick and tired. I don't know what to do any more, it just seems as if there is nothing here anymore but drama. It's pathetic how unreal people are, and it really pisses me off more than anything else. It's annoying and I'm tired of it. I'm threw with the drama, if I have to I will drop everyone that I have to in order to get rid of the aggrivation and annoyiance that this bullshit brings to my life. I am 18 years old, I don't need this much stress in my life.
Well, I just woke Heather B. up by typing so I think that I am going to go ahead and go. I don't have anything else to say. I'll update some more later this evening sometime. But anyhow for whoever reads this- take care.
|
|
| [.Suntan.] |
[08 Jul 2004|11:58pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
cranky |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
PS2 - Def Jam Vendetta |
] |
Heather and I are supposed to lay out in the sun all day tomorrow. I got myself a new bathing suit. I thought it was only going to be $13 dollars for the bottoms and $13 for the top but no it was $16 fucking dollars. Can you believe that shit? That is just, woah. It's really pretty. I wanted to get this nice blue one but I never did. I felt uncomfortable and it revealed a lot and I didn't like it too well. Heather said it looked awesome, but you know how I can be sometimes.
Quote of the day: "Baby, you're not possed to underestimate meee!" (said in a very, very whiney and crackling voice) ::Heather::
Anyways, we went to the fair tonight and just walked around. Heather bought 3 fuzzy bucket hats. Me and her a pink one, and Zach a red one. They're awesome, and the hat doesn't look all too bad on us. Actually, I kinda like them. Lynn said that Heather looked "plum stupid" in her hat.
Fuck, I'm irritated now. I'm going to go ahead and go lay down now. Ugh. Oh by the way- today was mine and Zach's one year anniversary. Wasn't that exciting?? Yay! Okay..I'm over it. Farewell everyone.
Pizzeace! =)
<3
|
|
| [.Pretty in pink.] |
[07 Jul 2004|07:48pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 bouncy |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
Heather - Burping Loudly!! |
] |
Everyone better say its cute..=)
|
|
| [.Theif.] |
[06 Jul 2004|02:29pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
pissed off |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
TV - The Fairly Odd Parents |
] |
Well, I had a decent weekend until 85 bucks was stolen right out of my wallet. Zach, Heather B., Heather H., Robbie and I were all supposed to go swimming so instead of leaving my wallet in the car, I brung it in so no one would steal anything (ha!) and well what do you know? Someone came inside of Lynn and Heather B's house and stole my money. It was either Robbie or Heather H., and I know that it wasn't Robbie because Robbie emptied out his pockets right in front of Heather B. and Zach...The worse part of it all is that Heather H. stayed the night with me this whole weekend and 30 dollars was taken out of my dads wallet. So, what does that tell me? That I had a lying, theiving little bitch staying at my house this whole weekend. Smiling in my face, laughing, carrying on at my house, eating my food and I even gave her and the other Heather (Heather B.) my bed to sleep in. What the hell was I thinking?! Obviously I was retarded...
Ugh, it makes me sick to my stomach to even think about this shit. I can't believe that someone would steal money from me and my dad. A total of $115 dollars was taken from me and dad- anyone who knows me knows that I don't have that kind of money to blow...What the hell? How low and dirty could a piece of shit person be to take money from a family that let them stay in their house. That's alright because I know that the smiles were fake and I KNOW that there were lots of lies being told, and flirting was going on and little fake giggles and everything were happening but you know- I'm better than that. I can spot out the lies and deal with it...that's just because I'm good like that, but you know what? Losers never win and the way I feel about the situation is that because you took my money- you'll get yours, one way or the other...You will get yours.
|
|
| [.Fairly Long Time.] |
[29 Jun 2004|02:59pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
hungry |
] |
Not much has been happening lately. I do have some exciting news, Heather and I have decided to put things behind of us and start off as "brand new friends". It was pretty much a mutual thing that we both wanted to have happen, so things are more comfortable now.
Nothing else is happening, Zach and Michael are outside catching snakes in the river and I'm starving to death. I can't wait to go home and make some chili macaroni hamburger helper. Fun times.
Anyways, I guess I'm going to go ahead and go...I don't have anything else to say. I feel like this journal is just going down hill, I never post in it any more, even if I wanted to I wouldn't have the time or the access to do so.
Oh well..I'm gone.
|
|
| [.It's been forever.] |
[18 Jun 2004|06:48pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 crazy |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
Bad Company - Bad Company |
] |
The neighbors DSL has been down for the past couple of weeks so I've had no internet access, it's been killing me, but it feels awesome to have a computer up and running again. Hell yeah! =)
Zach got a job through Manpower. He's working with a bunch of chemicals and stuff, fun times right? Woohoo!!
Well, I've got to go tend to some jello shooters. Haha..I'll try to update tomorrow. Later.
|
|
| [.Hot.] |
[09 Jun 2004|02:21pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 sleepy |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
Evanesence - Everybody's Fool |
] |
I took Zach looking for jobs this morning, in the town of Floyd it is 82 degrees. Wow, and we don't have anything but fans in the house. Of course, with our trailor being probably the newest one here, it has good insulation.
I feel so dillusional, even before I took a pain pill I was feeling funny. I hate this, the heat makes my mouth that much more sore too. God, I wish I hadn't of gotten them done in the summer, the winter months would've been so much better too. Ah fuck, can't complain too much seeing as how it's over and done with.
Haha, Zach and I both forgot about it, but yesterday was our 11 months together. We both forgot until about 11 o'clock last night. Unfortunatly we didn't get to do anything, but oh well everything will be all good. I want to plan something exciting to do for our one year anniversary but I don't have any clue what to do. Maybe I'll go to the lake or to the beach during that time. If my dads mom would ever send me some money in for my graduation then I'd have some money to do something with. Ugh, I'll be so glad when the doctor says I can go back to work. I made my mind up, I'm not going back to McDonalds. *shrugs* oh well, who cares? Besides, that is just too far to go to work for 6.50 an hour. To hell with that. There's nothing there that I'm going to miss! Well, I shouldn't say that- I'll miss Whitney, and I might miss Valerie but that's a very small chance. Oh well, it's not my loss.
I'm rambling- I don't know what else to say. I'm bored, there's nothing to do and I don't feel well enough to go driving anywhere in this God Forsaken heat. Mother of God why don't it just rain again? Even though the rain is depressing, it still made the heat go away at least for a little while. Oh no! It can't rain! I've got fun plans for this weekend!
Oh good God, I can't wait until this weekend! Barbi, Zach, and I and maybe even Scooter are going to go rafting down the river in Zach's dad's boats. I need to go down there sometime this week, maybe tomorrow- or even tonight and get a few more applications, get the rest of Zach's money from Eugene and get the boats from his dad..that's going to kick ass. Seriously, I don't know how much fun it's going to be, but I bet it's going to be tons. I mean, just going from the river over at Zach's dad's house, to my old trailor park is fun so I can just imagine what this is going to be like. Of course, I'm a little worried about it because I don't know the water and I'm not familiar with it, but oh well..no better time to learn than the present.
But I'm going to go write a few letters to some people that I haven't talked to in forever, like almost my whole entire lifetime. Maybe if I write my granny a letter she'll respond faster than what she's doing. That'll be fun..haha, no- that's wrong.
|
|
| [.Wisdom Teeth.] |
[08 Jun 2004|04:39pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
drained |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
Charmed |
] |
I had my wisdom teeth cut out yesterday. The fucked up thing is, I woke up from the anestesia (sp?) before they were done and I told the dentist that I felt him cutting, it was hurting- so he in turn told me to shut up so he could finish, so I told him fuck you. That's the last thing I remember then I was in the recovery room and some girl was holding me down and dad came in and asked me if I was ready to leave. It was really a big blur but I know what I heard, and I know what was said to me reguardless of if I was doped up on medicine or not. The bill is like $1,440. That's outrageous, but I did get all four cut out. Fun times.
My teeth really aren't bothering me much, I took a lortab 7.5 yesterday and it took like an hour and a half to kick in and take any of the pain away, so this morning I took an oxycodone 5 and it kicked in like 15-20 minutes after taking the thing. So I think that's what I'm going to be using for the pain, thankfully there really isn't much pain. I keep chewing on a piece of gum that is hanging down from the top left and that's pretty much pissing me off but there really isn't anything that I can do to stop it. I wish there was though.
God, and I've got a headache on top of everything. The dentist told me that I might get a slight head cold, and a fever but the fever shouldn't acceed over 101 degrees. So, if it does reach 101.whatever, I have to call the dentist immediatley so they can do what they need to do to fix me.
I have a follow up appointment Monday at 11 o'clock. Fun times. Tomorrow I have to take Zach out looking for a job, hopefully he can find something good paying. I can't wait to go back to work. I don't think that I'll be going back to McDonalds after everything is over with. I really want to go to Echostar but I'm not sure if I'll be able to or not. I have a completer in Business and Technology and I'm real good with computers, so I'll probably get the job but I don't know if I want to work my schedule around for that, of course for $9 an hour, you can't complain. That's damn good money for someone that just finished highschool. I don't know what I'm going to be doing...hopefully something fun that I can enjoy. To hell with McDonalds and their cheap 6.50 an hour bullshit. I'm far more better than that.
Overall, things have been going pretty good. I'm excited about this summer and I'm hoping to be able to make it to the beach. If not, then I'll have to plan to do it next summer, but whatever. I'll be starting Western in the fall so I'm ready for that...even though it worries me a little bit, I'm still real excited for myself. It's about damn time I've got my head on straight and I'm doing something right without anyone holding me back from my dreams. ;o)
Anyway, I think I'm going to change my journal around a little bit. I'm not sure how? *shrugs* Farewell..
|
|
| [.No More School.] |
[05 Jun 2004|02:37pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 confused |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
Evanesence - Fallen |
] |
Graduation was last night...It was a good time. Dad, Pete, Jeannie, Angie (and her family) and Barbi and her family came to see me. I thought it was cool, afterwards dad was begging me to go to Angies house, I didn't know why, but they were throwing me a surprise Graduation Party thing with pizza, cake, and 'drinks'. They were drinking Red Bull and Skyy Blue Vodka...it was pretty good, Zach didn't like it too much. I have two bottles of Crown Royal. I would've drank last night, but it was too late to start- it was about 12:30 when we got back home from Angie's house so I wasn't too excited about starting to drink.
I feel lost, like I don't know what to do, where to go, and even if I did, I don't think that I would know where to start. It's a little weird, and I've got an odd feeling inside my stomach, but I guess I just need to get a little more familiar with the transition that I just made in my life. As a friend said last night, "Today is the first day, of the rest of our lives!" Scary isn't it? Wow, what's next? It's like this never ending journey that no one can predict. Normally it'd be like, "wow guys, it's summer vacation- see you this August!" and now, it's like- "Wow, I'll see you guys whenever I see you, and if I don't- then I'll miss you. Take care." I've lost a lot of people in my life time, but to lose everyone that I've ever known in one night hurts some kind of bad. It's such an indescribable feeling and I don't know where to begin with the thoughts that are running through my head.
The next stop in my destination is college. I'll be off to VA Western in the fall and then what do I do? I learn to know those people, and then in two years I'll go away from them, I'll go to a University and meet even more people, only to have to say good-bye to them as well. It's funny how life is, I wish that I was just a little kid again. I wish that I could just go back to being in Elementary school thinking- "Geez, when do I get out of here?" We were all so excited to be able to finally leave school, it was the last day and then when the actual time came to do it...no one wanted to part. At least I didn't. I guess I'll run into some people some time, if it's meant for me to, and if not then I guess it was nice knowing them- at least I've got my memories of everything that's happened, the memories of me beating people's asses, and getting embarressed over stupid things, having field day in elementary school, and Mark punching me in the nose because of Ashton. Even though they weren't the best of times, and even though I did miss a lot of time, and a lot of school days, I'm still proud to say that I had the chance to get to know all of those fuckers, and I got to spend some majority of my life with them. To beat it all, I'm extremely proud to say that I am a graduate of 2004.
|
|
| [.Barbeque.] |
[31 May 2004|08:02pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
drunk |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
Good Charlotte - Life Styles of the Rich and Famous |
] |
I'm plastered- Angie and Scott are over at dad's house. I'm over at Barbi and Ian's place. Had a few (6 or 7) Zimas. I'm not drunk, but buzzed. I have graduation practice tomorrow too! Hah, fun times- right?
The cook out was fun! Actually, it's still going on. Dad was supposed to come over and hang out but he got pissed off at everyone coming over there asking him, so he said to hell with it. I'll take him a plate, so he can have some dinner, but I'm not going over there right this second.
I really want some Crown Royal. The ABC store was closed this morning so I was a little upset. I was actually a little pissed off! Anyway, I've got a headache and I want to go hang out some more so I am going to go hang out. Farewell!
|
|
| [.Deal With It.] |
[25 May 2004|10:39am] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
pissed off |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
Lindsay's Presentation |
] |
Yeah, yeah! It sucks- deal with it!!
|
|
| navigation |
| [ |
viewing |
| |
most recent entries |
] |
| [ |
go |
| |
earlier |
] |
|
|
|
|
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small}
syk0tikdreemz's journal